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look to the pasta ([personal profile] annakovsky) wrote2003-11-24 01:06 am

Umad learns Sumerian

Here's a little ficlet, which is hot off the press in the sense that it probably sucks and needs to be revised more but since I'm leaving for Thanksgiving break tomorrow I wanted to post it already (deep, gasping breath - hello, Mr. Runon).

This one goes out to everyone who ever wondered "How does Dawn suddenly know Sumerian in Season 7? Isn't Sumerian hard?" Also to everyone who's ever thought, "Yeah, this fanfiction stuff is great, but why isn't it more educational? I want to learn!" A fic about learning dead languages, when you're Dawn and it's the summer after season 6.

Okay, I went back and revised this thing on the plane, so there are some small changes here. Hopefully the fic is better now - wouldn't it suck if you spent all this time revising and it ended up worse?



Dawn lies on her bed amid a sea of books. Spiral notebook and photocopied cuneiform in front of her, Labat's Manuel d' Epigraphie Akkadienne and her blue Concise Dictionary of Akkadian to her left, Dalley's Myths from Mesopotamia and Huehnergard's dark green first year Akkadian grammar to her right. She begins transliterating the photocopied manuscript at line one, writing slowly, occasionally consulting Labat to check a sign value. She translates and parses as she goes.

e-nu-ma e-lis la na-bu-u2 sa2-ma-mu
When on high the heavens were not named


"G stat. 3mp" she writes above na-bu-u, because it is a stative in the G stem, third person masculine plural. It is important to parse every verb. She writes carefully, her notes in tiny, perfect handwriting.

***

There had been a Scooby meeting, sans Willow, after the whole Willow-going-evil-and-trying-to-destroy-the-world-and-kill-all-of-them thing. Not that Dawn was bitter about that. No, Willow threatening to revert her to green energy had rolled right off her back.

Everyone else had made all the decisions already, of course. Giles was taking Willow back to England with him, so she could get help or whatever.

"So she tries to kill us and she gets a free trip to England?" Dawn had said dryly. "I shoplifted, does that mean I get a weekend in LA?"

"Dawn," Buffy had said warningly, and she shut up while the rest of them talked details. She was sick of never having a say in things, of having everyone concerned about taking care of her. It was stupid and boring and she felt useless. Besides, if this was them taking care of her, they did a sucky job. It was time she took care of herself.

***

sap-lis am-ma-tu4 su-ma la zak-rat
And below, the earth's name had not been spoken


zakrat = from zakaru, G stative third person feminine singular
ammatu = strong, stable, a poetic word for the earth
zakaru sumu = to mention someone's name

***

She slipped downstairs after Buffy had gone up to bed. Giles was sleeping on their couch again, even though Willow and Tara's room was free. Guess it creeped him out – Dawn didn't blame him. She hated even having to walk by that room anymore.

She figured he might still be up, and he was, reading. He looked tired and still kind of beat up. Willow really did a number on him.

"Dawn," he said when he saw her. He smiled slightly. "Another cereal experiment?"

She shook her head. "I wanted to talk to you." He put his book down and focused on her, raising his eyebrows expectantly. She perched on the arm of the couch.

"I want to learn Sumerian," she said. "A ton of the stuff that's really old and important for research is in it, and I can never find translations."

He looked surprised. "You want to… for research?"

"Uh huh," she said.

"Not… er, not for magicks?" he asked.

She rolled her eyes. "Please. I'm not a moron."

He looked doubtful. "Dawn, Sumerian is a very difficult language. It isn't as though you can sign up for a course at the local community college. A definitive lexicon hasn't even been published."

"Really?" she asked.

He was staring into the middle distance, as though thinking very hard. His explanation was distracted, on exposition autopilot. "Well, they've put out the first two volumes. So if one needs information on words beginning with A or B, it's available, but otherwise one is rather at a loss."

"Cool," Dawn said.

His mouth twisted. "Dawn, why this sudden interest?"

"Well… you're leaving again," she said. That was a big fat duh – wasn't it obvious why she needed to learn this? "And you're taking Willow with you."

"And?"

"C'mon, Giles, who's going to research if some big evil thing comes to town? Buffy? Xander? I mean, I love 'em, but they're not exactly the brightest crayons in the box, you know?"

"Dawn," he said, admonishingly. She looked down and sighed heavily. No one ever let her do anything.

"The two of them can't fight evil alone," she muttered. He looked at her intently, searchingly, as if he had never really seen her before. She began to fidget. "Well, they can't." He nodded slowly.

"All right," he said, after a moment. "I'll get you some books."

***

ZU.AB-ma res-tu-u2 za-ru-su-un
The first one, Apsu, their begetter


The signs are complicated, each one with several values. The second word begins with the sign SAG, which is the Sumerian logogram for "head." Here it isn't a logogram – it's syllabic. The syllabic values are sag, sak and saq, plus the values res and ris, because the Akkadian word for head is "resu". It all makes sense, in a convoluted sort of way – like putting together a puzzle, pieces fitting into each other, the system a harmonious whole. The sign means "res" here, because restu means "first" and the text is about creation, the first things.

Dawn herself is the Key, one of the primeval, first things. She tries not to think about that.

***

The next day Giles came back to the house with his arms full of books, so full that he had to ring the doorbell with his elbow. Dawn relieved him of a few from the top of the stack when she opened the door, and he managed to dump the rest on the dining room table.

There were three grammars of Sumerian, one of Akkadian, and many, many other reference books.

"Akkadian?" Dawn asked.

"The other major language of Mesopotamia. It's Semitic, related to Hebrew and Arabic rather than to Sumerian, but it and Sumerian share the cuneiform writing system and a common, continuous culture. Most learn the two languages together. You will find that it is also important for research." Giles ran a hand through his hair, sounding a bit breathless from carrying the books. Dawn fingered one of them, old and battered. Its spine was coming off. "That one's out of print," Giles said. "I had to get it secondhand."

She thought of him going from store to store, searching for books for her. Deciding which ones would work best, poring through stacks of dusty volumes in used bookstores. She smiled slightly, glancing up at him. "Thanks, Giles."

***

mu-um-mu ti-amat (GEME2) mu-al-li-da-at gim-ri-su2-un
Tiamat, the life-giving force, the one giving birth to all of them


muallidat = from waladu, D participle feminine singular in the bound form

***

Dawn finds Akkadian easier than Sumerian, more straightforward. They know more about it, how it works. There are fewer debates about what each morpheme means.

She makes flashcards of the cuneiform signs, memorizes their values. The syllables on each card become like little nursery rhymes – this one is "be-bad-bat-mid-mit-til-ziz", that one "tar-kud-kut-qud-qut-has-hash-haz-hats-sil-shil". They become rhythmic, pick up the relentless beat of memorization and the music she always has playing while she studies. With syllables and bass lines pounding in her head there is no space to think of Tara, of Willow, of Spike, of Anya, of Giles. Just logograms and determinatives and the ergative case.

Buffy sometimes knocks on her door, calling her for dinner or whatever. She seems to think that Dawn spends her days dancing and singing along to the music that's always playing, maybe painting her nails and taking the quizzes in Seventeen. Buffy gets these nostalgic looks and says things like, "I wish I still got a summer vacation."

Dawn smiles sweetly at her and recites verb paradigms in her head. The irregular verb alaku, Gt stem, preterite tense: ittalak, tattalak, tattalka, attalak, ittalku, ittalka, tattalka, nittalak. He went away, you (masculine singular) went away, you (feminine singular) went away, I went away, they (masculine plural) went away, they (feminine plural) went away, you (common plural) went away, we went away.

Sunu kalama ittalku. All of them went away.

***

Xander comes over after work most days. Sometimes he picks up pizza or Chinese on the way over, sometimes he and Buffy attempt to cook.

Dawn comes downstairs and perches on the island, watches them try to figure out which spice tastes like what.

"The only one I know for sure is cinnamon," Xander says. "Why did your mom have this massive spice rack, anyway? Does an instruction manual come with this thing?"

Buffy laughs. It is good to hear her laugh. "Here's garlic. You know garlic, right?"

"Yeah, okay, I'll give you that one. That stuff is seriously overrated when it comes to vampire repulsion, though. And my resentment over that little fact almost puts me off garlic altogether."

Dawn dreams that night that Buffy and Xander are married and it was always just the three of them, a little family. There never was a Watcher or a sex-toy pet vampire or favorite lesbian aunt types or an ex-ex-vengeance-demon-ex-fiancee. Or a deadbeat dad, or a mom with a brain tumor. She dreams that she was always a real girl, that she had existed for exactly 16 years, not for all of time or for a year and a half, whichever way you wanted to look at it. That she was born because a mommy and daddy loved each other very much.

When she wakes up she wants to pummel something and is glad she lives in a house where there's a punching bag in the basement.

***

A.MES-su-nu is-te-nis i-hi-qu-u2-ma
They (Tiamat and Apsu) were mixing their waters together


ihiquma = from hiaqu, G Durative 3mp plus the conjunction ma
– Tiamat is the salt water and Apsu the sweet water – sexual imagery – boy would Buffy be pissed if she knew I was reading this - hahahaha

***

She works on translations for hours every day, makes Buffy take her out patrolling at night. She will be ready when they need her.

Everything she does makes her more real, every mark of her pencil on the paper. The monks may have created her old diary and all her baby pictures and school transcripts, but they did not create the pages of parsings and translation scattered over her bedroom floor. They did not create the emails of questions she sends off to Giles, did not create her UCSunnydale library card. They did not create whatever she is going to do next.

***

e-nu-ma DINGIR.DINGIR la su-pu-u ma-na-ma
When no gods whatsoever were yet visible

su-ma la zuk-ku-ru si-ma-tu2 la si-i-mu
They were not named, they were not yet fated with fates

ib-ba-nu-u2-ma DINGIR.DINGIR qe2-reb2-su2-un
The gods were created in their midst


***

Vocabulary:

zakaru = to speak; to name; to call into existence; to give purpose

***

No one is ever going to turn her back into green energy, because she will be ready. She has no past, but she has a future (probably), and no one will take it away. Not Willow, not anyone, and these dead languages are her talisman against dissolution, against bleeding away into nothing.

Besides, the rest of them don't think about it, but one of these days life or death is going to come down to having someone who can read cuneiform. And she'll be ready.

***

END


The Akkadian is from Enuma Elish, sometimes known as the Babylonian Epic of Creation. I've quoted (without permission) the first 8 lines of Lambert's composite cuneiform text, with my own translation. And all the Akkadian and Sumerian information is accurate, so far as it goes, and the reference books are real.

Dawn, on the other hand, is fictional, both in our world and, sadly, mostly in hers. She and everyone else belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.





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[identity profile] swmbo.livejournal.com 2003-11-23 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)

Oh! This was beautiful, it really was.

Sunu kalama ittalka. All of them went away. -

Dawn's determination to protect herself, her dedication. The small tidbits of dialogue with Giles, between Buffy and Xander, they're lovely.


No one is ever going to turn her back into green energy, because she will be ready. She has no past, but she has a future (probably), and no one will take it away. Not Willow, not anyone. These dead languages are her talisman against dissolution, bleeding away into nothing..

That - I loved that. It's perfect, it hits me hard, I can see Dawn thinking this as she studies harder everyday, forcing herself to be disciplined. Not able to reveal how terrified she is, not even to herself, of no longer existing. Repeating and translating and defining in order to keep herself calm.

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:18 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! I'm so glad you think that bit at the end worked, I wasn't sure about it.
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[personal profile] abbylee 2003-11-23 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
:D Pretty.

Sorry, too tired for a better response. But I do love me my edumacational fanfic ;)

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:18 am (UTC)(link)
Hee! Thanks. I take my duty to educate the masses in the ways of Assyriology seriously. :-)

[identity profile] 47-trek-47.livejournal.com 2003-11-23 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Dude! This is awesome. Wonderful Dawn characterisation. And nifty to read about learning the language, especially from someone who really knows what they're talking about.

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:19 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! Glad the Dawn rings true - I get such a kick out of writing her, I can't believe that I didn't use to like her. :-)

[identity profile] sophia-helix.livejournal.com 2003-11-23 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, wow, this is great. Dawn is so real here, and so interesting, and I'm a sucker for Scooby portrayals outside the core four. I like the sparseness of the interactions, and the cleanness of the prose, and the dialogue is great. Plus the Sumerian passages completely fascinated this language geek.

Also...damn. I have complete appreciation for what you do now. And I thought Japanese was hard! *g*

.m

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

Also...damn. I have complete appreciation for what you do now.

Hee! I think my subconscious motivation for writing this was to get pity for how I suffer at the hands of Akkadian and Sumerian. :-)

[identity profile] kindkit.livejournal.com 2003-11-23 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, lovely. I adore the way you use the Sumerian and Akkadian translations to structure and comment on the story and to develop Dawn's character.

Plus, linguistics is my bulletproof kink. (Although, these languages? Scary. Latin is quite awful enough for me, thank you.)

Your Dawn is wonderfully written, and I'm also thrilled that you've given Giles something to do. You've rescued him from the awful pointlessness that ME condemned him to.

Just a wonderful story in every respect.

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! Glad the translations work structurally - I had a hard time finding the right bits of Enuma Elish to fit it to. The part I'm translating now is all about how Marduk has four eyes and four ears and how his limbs are beyond comprehension - and while this is sort of fun, it doesn't really fit with the story. :-)

linguistics is my bulletproof kink.

So this is like porn for you! :-) I actually considered titling it "Akkadian Porn" but thought that might be misleading.

And oh, Latin. I miss Latin. It has an alphabet. :-)
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[personal profile] gwynnega 2003-11-23 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Sunu kalama ittalka. All of them went away.

This is fabulous! I'm a sucker for Buffyfic that expands upon the research/linguistic/etc. angle, and you've beautifully woven together Dawn's personal "issues" and her Akkadian and Sumerian learning. Quite original and cool!



[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:25 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! And thanks for the pimps this morning!

[identity profile] willshenilshe.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
Once again you impress me beyond words. I've no talent for languages myself, so I admire your ability in both the ancient tongues and with the modern short story. Wonderful!

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks - so glad you liked it!

[identity profile] ludditerobot.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 06:33 am (UTC)(link)
Wow. I'd say that rocks, but rocking really requires electricity, which was discovered and put to practical years millenia after the Akkadian and Sumerian languages snuffed it. It plays a fine tune on the lute? Even that's too advanced! It displays great proficiency on war drums? Anyway, great job.

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
Heh. Yeah, they had war drums. You can also go with the harp, though war drums are probably more rockin'. :-) Glad you liked it and thanks for the pimp in your journal!

[identity profile] fitofpique.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
This is absolutely gorgeous and I envy your gift for characterization. In just a few lines, you've really captured all of their voices.

And the way you've woven together Dawn's fears and desires with her study of the languages is absolutely brilliant and, above all, very moving.

Beautiful!

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! Glad you liked the interweaving with the language - these are the stories I write mentally while I parse verbs. :-)

Gorgeous, Annakovsky!

[identity profile] honorh.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
Beautiful Dawn characterization, amazing use of language (both English and Akkadian or whatever)--I absolutely love this. Will pimp it from my LJ next update.

Re: Gorgeous, Annakovsky!

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:28 am (UTC)(link)
So glad you like the Dawn - I trust your characterization of her. After all, you liked her before I did. :-)

[identity profile] stakebait.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 10:45 am (UTC)(link)
This is lovely and shivery and perfect.

Mer

[identity profile] annakovsky.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:28 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

:-)

[identity profile] nikitangel.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:48 am (UTC)(link)
"I shoplifted, does that mean I get a weekend in LA?"

"Dawn," Buffy had said warningly, and she shut up while the rest of them talked details. She was sick of never having a say in things, of having everyone concerned about taking care of her. It was stupid and boring and she felt useless. Besides, if this was them taking care of her, they did a sucky job. It was time she took care of herself.


Wow. Way to create actual character development out of something I always took to be a convenient 180 by the writers in case of spin-off. You really captured Dawn's voice and made me feel sympathetic toward her, which is not usual for me. The idea fits perfectly - I remember burying myself in European Civilization after I heard my parents were splitting up. I've never had such focus in my studies.

Also - "All of them went away" - perfect.

[identity profile] siobhan-w.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
It can be hard finding good Dawn fic - either she's written too young or too old. This was perfect! She's still young but she's determined to be more.

Fantastic job!

You Rock!

[identity profile] lostfolio.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 12:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Another gem, Doc. Keep 'em comming. Sorry nopt to have emailed, x-tra busy and flu wridden. Yummmm. Anyway, havew a great Thanksgiving.

[identity profile] whimsicalwhims.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I really liked this. Such a wonderful job of explaining how and why Dawn knew Sumerian. Lovely insight into Dawn's character development as well.

[identity profile] ascian3.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 12:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I really, really enjoyed this. Both the Dawnyness and the linguistics, and you did such a fantastic job of interweaving the two.
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[identity profile] rainkatt.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Loved this. Loved loved loved it. I like fics that capture who Dawn is, and this is wonderful explanation of how she became research girl. I thoroughly enjoyed the translations and how you immersed us in her studies, and can easily believe that she decided to do something to "make herself real" that gave her enough focus that she didn't have to dwell on the cracks in what had already been a very shaky support system.

[identity profile] a2zmom.livejournal.com 2003-11-24 07:21 pm (UTC)(link)
What a wonderful story that works on so many levels. I love that Dawn is becoming research girl in an attempt to define herself beyond the false self made by monks, while at the same time she's doing it simply because someone needs to.

Buffy's utter cluelessness rings all too true. As an older sister myself, we often don't see our sibling's growth until way too late.

I'm friending you because I don't want to accidentally miss any of your stories!
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[personal profile] minim_calibre 2003-11-24 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, this was gorgeous.

(Anonymous) 2003-11-24 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi! Due to my lurking at the Livejournal of the talented HonorH, I stumbled upon this wonderful fic of yours.

I was already familiar with your superb Getting Off The Griefmobile series which I found through TWoP (I frequent those boards as ‘Lil Miss Muffet’). If I recall correctly, I left you some ff.net feedback for that well-wrought piece of work. I loved how well you captured the humour and character voices of the show! Remarkably well done.

So it was a treat happening upon your latest effort. I really, really enjoyed this thoughtful little Dawn-centric fic. You did a fine job of tapping into some of her inner turmoil. It reminds me of a sentiment expressed in Season 7. There’s a scene where Buffy tells the potentials that, “most people in this world have no idea why they're here or what they want to do” - and hearing this, poor Dawn looks like she’s been pierced through the heart.

So I love how your rendition of Dawn is trying to find some sense of purpose through learning Sumerian. It fits really well with her character and was a pleasure to read =)

- Allyson

[identity profile] rozk.livejournal.com 2003-11-25 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
Don't mind me, I am just standing around waiting to join the queue to praise you and trying to whistle to keep up my spirits while I wait.

This was just gorgeous - partly because it is so smart and partly because it nails Dawn so totally. Her drives and her fears and her strength.

This reminds me of why we need a Dawn show.

wow!

(Anonymous) 2003-11-25 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
Found this via Better Buffy Fics - WOW! This is just amazing. I adore how you're woven Dawn's issues with the languages themselves (appealing to the language geek in me, too) and just heartbreaking. "All of them went away." - just took my breath away for a minute. Love the scene where Dawn asks Giles for help and LOVE "boy would Buffy be pissed if she knew I was reading this".

This is just great! Aww, Dawn. Now I miss them all, all over again.

I second that "wow!"

(Anonymous) 2003-12-12 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
That was absolutely beautiful. So well balanced you could almost dance to it. I really have nothing else to add to all of the other comments,I just wanted to say my own personal thank you.

[identity profile] liptonrm.livejournal.com 2003-11-25 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
What an amazing fic! I was never a huge Dawn fan, but you've given me such a clear understanding of her character in just a few, sure lines. I love your characterization, I love how you've described the world and the events of season 6 through Dawn's eyes. I am so grateful to have found this story and so grateful that you've shared this bit of Dawn's life with us all;-).

[identity profile] knullabulla.livejournal.com 2003-11-25 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
Hi! [livejournal.com profile] oyceter recommended your story in her journal. I really enjoyed it... the language stuff lends such interest to Dawn, knowing that she's older than heck. The studying sequences made me think of someone getting to know an old friend again. Also loved how you kept Dawn's inner-turmoil very quiet but real at the same time.

Kudos!

[identity profile] twistingflame.livejournal.com 2003-11-25 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
It's official. I adore you. This is just gorgeous. On the surface it's basic fanwank - the reason Dawn knows Sumerian is because she studied that summer. But it's really just a story of a girl who wants to be real and useful. And it's heartwarming. The Sumerian only adds to the depth. ::sighs in happiness::

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