Goodbye I'm leaving this house and this country for home.

[annakovsky]

I've been perpetually in a weird emo-ish mood lately, where I'm like a big bundle of twitchy feelings I don't know what to do with. Well, channeling them into writing fanfiction is all I really know to do with my feelings anymore, but unfortunately I can't do that all day long.

It's just rough -- I've been having to tell everyone I know here that I'm moving away, and it's a big bummer, and every time I see the 83 bus I get a little pang, weirdly enough, and even though I think the move is going to be really good in the long run, right now I'm sad. Also, it's rainy and I'm listening to sad songs all the time, and I am very susceptible to the pathetic fallacy.

Anyway, here are the three songs I have on repeat right now, two of which are sad and one of which is peppiness personified, so they don't go together at ALL but I can't help it. One is Jonas Brothers, one is from the finale of Life, and one is from a Band of Brothers vid... which probably represents the headspace I'm in at pretty much all times fairly accurately.

More than Alive, Hayden
Street Light Halos, Jeffrey Foucault
Live to Party, Jonas Brothers

Also, Life got canceled and I'm bummed. :(

Also, I'm bored. I'm copyediting the world's most boring philosophical article and I can't focus at all. Someone come in here and talk to me about how Pam and Ryan should do it, or how Reese and Crews should do it, or how Nick Jonas and Lewis Nixon should do it or something.

Comments

[moireach.livejournal.com]

Don't you mean "how Pam and Ryan already totally did it"?

Leaving things suuuuuuuucks. :( I'm already tired of crying, and there's over a month to go. Ugh ugh, let's make margaritas and be awesome instead.

Be whatever you like, Pam, you're my redhead.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

You mean, when Pam was in New York at art school and she ran into Ryan at this club when she was out with her friends, and he was drinking club soda and he saw her awhile before she saw him, and she was laughing and with this big group of people and looking really, really happy, and he knew it was creepy for him to just keep watching her but he couldn't stop?

Ugh, I know. Last night A. asked how long we'd been roommates except he phrased it, "How long have you two been together?" which made me laugh/cry. Haha, I don't want to get divoooooooooorced. :( WE NEED MANY MARGARITAS.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

They cancelled KINGS too. Also my son is turning 13 on Thursday and Vincent fucking Kartheiser turns THIRTY today and you know what- I cannot help you. I AM SORRY.

*hedshoulder*

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

WHY IS EVERYTHING SUCH A BUMMER? *CLINGS*

Hahaha, Kartheiser is thirty? Oh, baby boy! That's weird.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

I KNOW!! IT IS INSANE!! It's almost harder to swallow than Jake being 13. But you know, I TRY TO KEEP THOSE THINGS VERY SEPARATE IN MY HEAD FOR OBVIOUS REASONS.

Kovsky. The move will be great for you. **

Re: Be whatever you like, Pam, you're my redhead.

[moireach.livejournal.com]

Oh goddammit, I'm going to have to go reread your Comedy of Remarriage PRONTO.

Aaaaahhhhhhhh, yes, that's what I mean. And then she runs into him at the bar and he says something mean, and she says something catty back, and then one of the girls she's out with comes up and says hey, who's your friend, Pam?, there's room for him to come sit with us, and Pam tries to say no, but it's too late, he's in. He gets Sarah to invite him to everything, and he's always around, and he's always looking at her, and sometimes they take cabs home together, and slide against each other in the backseat when it takes sharp turns, and she says, get off me, but she doesn't sound like she means it?

This is the worst divorce since Ted and Marshall. Lorelai and Rory. Monica and Rachel. :(

[cashewdani.livejournal.com]

Basically, I think what we all need is for the sun to return to earth and for Pam and Ryan to make out. I know it would help.

Hopefully things get a little more cheery for you soon!!!

Re: Be whatever you like, Pam, you're my redhead.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Auuuuuuugh sliding into each other in the cab. And he likes hanging out with all Pam's friends, because first of all, none of his old friends are speaking to him since he went to jail, and second of all, being pretend-mean to Pam is fun, since she always says something mean back. And maybe one time, he's there when Pam drunk-dials Jim and leaves him a seven minute message on his work phone, and Ryan's yelling, "Pam, get off the PHONE," in the background, and when Jim hears it he's like "..." and then calls Pam back and is like, uh, was that RYAN there? And Pam's like, uh, did I not tell you that Sarah keeps inviting him to things? I could've sworn I had. Even though she knows perfectly well that she didn't. And then they get in this huge passive-aggressive fight about it, and Jim finally hangs up on her, and so when Ryan comes by because he "accidentally" bought two cannolis and doesn't want to eat both, he finds Pam crying. Which makes him really uncomfortable on the one hand, but when he finds out it's because of Jim, he feels weirdly smug?

Joey and Chandler. Turk and JD. John Lennon and Paul McCartney. :( :( :(

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

HEE. Yes, I could see how separation might be imperative there! But yikes, HOW TIME DOES FLY. We're all getting old.

It will be! And it'd be sadder if I WASN'T sad, also, right?

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

SRSLY. Come back, sun! I miss you! Also, Pam and Ryan, you two light up my life. Get off my ass, hag!

Thank youuuuu! <3 <3

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

Yes! All good things in life come with hard choices! I think. I can't decide.

[herself_nyc]

Where are you moving to?

[lowriseflare.livejournal.com]

Aw, the 83 is a good one. I'm partial to the 9, myself, but I get what you mean. :)

Boston will miss you, Kovsky! But it's going to be pretty great, I think.

Also, that Jeffrey Foucault song is amazing.

[dsudis.livejournal.com]

Dammit, network. Dammit dammit dammit.

I really do have to finish my Crews/Reese story now, huh?

Here:


It had turned out, to his total non-surprise, that Dani liked to drive everywhere, not just in the car. Charlie didn't mind, because he wanted to go wherever she was taking him--up against a wall, on his kitchen counter, and this time, just for a change, in his bed.

Charlie was mostly naked, and Dani mostly wasn't, but he still wasn't going to argue; among other things, he was flat on his back with Dani straddling him as she emptied her belt. She set her piece down on the night stand, and Charlie ran his hands encouragingly up her thighs--her jeans were worn thin, molded to her, and he could feel her body heat pouring right through them.

Dani gave him half a smile and stripped out of her shirt, tossing it behind her, so it fell just past the foot of the bed. He had a feeling she knew just where it landed, could find it in the dark if she had to, but he wasn't thinking too much about that, because his hands were up over her hips, thumbs teasing at the bare skin above her jeans, and Dani was grinning down at him. Her bra was white, with a little wear on the straps, nothing new or special--like they'd already skipped past the matching-bra-and-panties phase and moved on to the who-cares-what-we're-wearing-I've-folded-your-laundry phase. Charlie had liked that phase a lot, and he really liked the idea of being there with Dani. It was almost as good as Dani calling him her partner.

[mardia.livejournal.com]

I totally get what you mean. I always get a little depressed and wistful in May at the end of the school year, even though I'm not actually dealing with any major changes until next year.

And fyi, I am ALWAYS up for talking about Nick Jonas and Lewis Nixon doing it. Or Dani Reese and Dick Winters.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Back home to Kentucky to finish my dissertation, actually! I'm excited and optimistic about it, but I'm sad to be leaving Boston.

[herself_nyc]

Well, congratulations, and good luck with the move.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Hee, the 83 is my favorite of the buses that comes by my house, but considering the amount of time I spend annoyed at the MBTA, you wouldn't think that seeing CITY BUSES would make me sad. But you know. Haha. Stockholm syndrome.

Isn't that song great? It has been on some repeat one around here, I tell you what.

[grenadine.livejournal.com]

Ugh, life changes (even good ones!) are so stressful. I remember how weird it was to be in my college town for the couple of months after graduation and before my internship; there was a lot of emo moping around. Plus, it rained, like, every day, which never helps.

Jeffrey Foucault! I love his voice and how he sounds like the apocalypse with added guitar, usually.

[irishmizzy.livejournal.com]

Might you go so far as to say you're feeling a tad "weenie rock" these days? (Augh, I'm sorry, feeling like that is the worst. Moving does not help. Once I got a little teary in the driving space between the ordering guy and the get-your-food window of a Portillo's. It happens. A-at least it wasn't a Steak 'n Shake? I don't even know.)

HEY, THANKS FOR THE MUSIC. AND THE PAM/RYAN THOUGHTS. Haha, every time I think about the cheese puff throwing heyday of the MPSC I turn into the mom from Peter Pan, all, "oh, why can't you remain like this forever?" They really were something else, those kids.

[mozarts-friend.livejournal.com]

Augh, I AM FEELING SIMILARLY BUMMED OUT. And I don't even have a good excuse like you do :P Maybe that it hasn't stopped raining in a week or something idek. If I didn't have to go to my last class of the semester (woot) in a few minutes I'd make you chat with me about Winters and Nick doing it. I mean...no, that's what I meant.

[miss-bennie.livejournal.com]

Awww. :( Want me to make you a happy mix? Maybe you should watch some Deal or No Deal? Pam and Ryan doing it? Want to go see a plaaaaaay?

(And I'm sorry about Life! I know how sad that must make you.)

Re: Be whatever you like, Pam, you're my redhead.

[mozarts-friend.livejournal.com]

(hey i'm really enjoying this pam/ryan fic i'm reading here, just thought i'd mention that)

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

AUGH, YES, YOU HAVE TO FINISH THIS. AUGH, MY HEART.

Haha, man, seriously, I can't even deal, that's so gooooooooooooooooood.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Yeah, seriously, it's always an ending! :(

Man, I know, I was bummed last night when I had to go out instead of continuing Dani/Winters, haha. How do you think it goes when they move in together?