Goodbye I'm leaving this house and this country for home.

[annakovsky]

I've been perpetually in a weird emo-ish mood lately, where I'm like a big bundle of twitchy feelings I don't know what to do with. Well, channeling them into writing fanfiction is all I really know to do with my feelings anymore, but unfortunately I can't do that all day long.

It's just rough -- I've been having to tell everyone I know here that I'm moving away, and it's a big bummer, and every time I see the 83 bus I get a little pang, weirdly enough, and even though I think the move is going to be really good in the long run, right now I'm sad. Also, it's rainy and I'm listening to sad songs all the time, and I am very susceptible to the pathetic fallacy.

Anyway, here are the three songs I have on repeat right now, two of which are sad and one of which is peppiness personified, so they don't go together at ALL but I can't help it. One is Jonas Brothers, one is from the finale of Life, and one is from a Band of Brothers vid... which probably represents the headspace I'm in at pretty much all times fairly accurately.

More than Alive, Hayden
Street Light Halos, Jeffrey Foucault
Live to Party, Jonas Brothers

Also, Life got canceled and I'm bummed. :(

Also, I'm bored. I'm copyediting the world's most boring philosophical article and I can't focus at all. Someone come in here and talk to me about how Pam and Ryan should do it, or how Reese and Crews should do it, or how Nick Jonas and Lewis Nixon should do it or something.

Comments

[moireach.livejournal.com]

Don't you mean "how Pam and Ryan already totally did it"?

Leaving things suuuuuuuucks. :( I'm already tired of crying, and there's over a month to go. Ugh ugh, let's make margaritas and be awesome instead.

Be whatever you like, Pam, you're my redhead.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

You mean, when Pam was in New York at art school and she ran into Ryan at this club when she was out with her friends, and he was drinking club soda and he saw her awhile before she saw him, and she was laughing and with this big group of people and looking really, really happy, and he knew it was creepy for him to just keep watching her but he couldn't stop?

Ugh, I know. Last night A. asked how long we'd been roommates except he phrased it, "How long have you two been together?" which made me laugh/cry. Haha, I don't want to get divoooooooooorced. :( WE NEED MANY MARGARITAS.

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

They cancelled KINGS too. Also my son is turning 13 on Thursday and Vincent fucking Kartheiser turns THIRTY today and you know what- I cannot help you. I AM SORRY.

*hedshoulder*

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

WHY IS EVERYTHING SUCH A BUMMER? *CLINGS*

Hahaha, Kartheiser is thirty? Oh, baby boy! That's weird.

[cashewdani.livejournal.com]

Basically, I think what we all need is for the sun to return to earth and for Pam and Ryan to make out. I know it would help.

Hopefully things get a little more cheery for you soon!!!

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

SRSLY. Come back, sun! I miss you! Also, Pam and Ryan, you two light up my life. Get off my ass, hag!

Thank youuuuu! <3 <3

[herself_nyc]

Where are you moving to?

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Back home to Kentucky to finish my dissertation, actually! I'm excited and optimistic about it, but I'm sad to be leaving Boston.

[lowriseflare.livejournal.com]

Aw, the 83 is a good one. I'm partial to the 9, myself, but I get what you mean. :)

Boston will miss you, Kovsky! But it's going to be pretty great, I think.

Also, that Jeffrey Foucault song is amazing.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Hee, the 83 is my favorite of the buses that comes by my house, but considering the amount of time I spend annoyed at the MBTA, you wouldn't think that seeing CITY BUSES would make me sad. But you know. Haha. Stockholm syndrome.

Isn't that song great? It has been on some repeat one around here, I tell you what.

[dsudis.livejournal.com]

Dammit, network. Dammit dammit dammit.

I really do have to finish my Crews/Reese story now, huh?

Here:


It had turned out, to his total non-surprise, that Dani liked to drive everywhere, not just in the car. Charlie didn't mind, because he wanted to go wherever she was taking him--up against a wall, on his kitchen counter, and this time, just for a change, in his bed.

Charlie was mostly naked, and Dani mostly wasn't, but he still wasn't going to argue; among other things, he was flat on his back with Dani straddling him as she emptied her belt. She set her piece down on the night stand, and Charlie ran his hands encouragingly up her thighs--her jeans were worn thin, molded to her, and he could feel her body heat pouring right through them.

Dani gave him half a smile and stripped out of her shirt, tossing it behind her, so it fell just past the foot of the bed. He had a feeling she knew just where it landed, could find it in the dark if she had to, but he wasn't thinking too much about that, because his hands were up over her hips, thumbs teasing at the bare skin above her jeans, and Dani was grinning down at him. Her bra was white, with a little wear on the straps, nothing new or special--like they'd already skipped past the matching-bra-and-panties phase and moved on to the who-cares-what-we're-wearing-I've-folded-your-laundry phase. Charlie had liked that phase a lot, and he really liked the idea of being there with Dani. It was almost as good as Dani calling him her partner.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

AUGH, YES, YOU HAVE TO FINISH THIS. AUGH, MY HEART.

Haha, man, seriously, I can't even deal, that's so gooooooooooooooooood.

[mardia.livejournal.com]

I totally get what you mean. I always get a little depressed and wistful in May at the end of the school year, even though I'm not actually dealing with any major changes until next year.

And fyi, I am ALWAYS up for talking about Nick Jonas and Lewis Nixon doing it. Or Dani Reese and Dick Winters.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Yeah, seriously, it's always an ending! :(

Man, I know, I was bummed last night when I had to go out instead of continuing Dani/Winters, haha. How do you think it goes when they move in together?

[grenadine.livejournal.com]

Ugh, life changes (even good ones!) are so stressful. I remember how weird it was to be in my college town for the couple of months after graduation and before my internship; there was a lot of emo moping around. Plus, it rained, like, every day, which never helps.

Jeffrey Foucault! I love his voice and how he sounds like the apocalypse with added guitar, usually.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Seriously, the rain is killing me, and I knooooow, change is sad and stressful. :( I'll be okay, but yikes.

how he sounds like the apocalypse with added guitar, usually.

WELL, THAT'S A GOOD DESCRIPTION. Haha, no wonder I like him.

[irishmizzy.livejournal.com]

Might you go so far as to say you're feeling a tad "weenie rock" these days? (Augh, I'm sorry, feeling like that is the worst. Moving does not help. Once I got a little teary in the driving space between the ordering guy and the get-your-food window of a Portillo's. It happens. A-at least it wasn't a Steak 'n Shake? I don't even know.)

HEY, THANKS FOR THE MUSIC. AND THE PAM/RYAN THOUGHTS. Haha, every time I think about the cheese puff throwing heyday of the MPSC I turn into the mom from Peter Pan, all, "oh, why can't you remain like this forever?" They really were something else, those kids.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Hahaha, I am indeed weenie rock! :( Awwww, man, hee, at least it wasn't a Steak 'n Shake, and that makes me feel better. <3 <3

IT'S JUST GOOD MUSIC IS ALL. God, seriously, I'm so bummed the MSPC already dissolved. I HOPE THEY STAY A PAPER COMPANY WITHIN A PAPER COMPANY FOR SOME TIME TO COME. God, maybe they all go out to dinner together every Wednesday night, to keep the memories alive.

[mozarts-friend.livejournal.com]

Augh, I AM FEELING SIMILARLY BUMMED OUT. And I don't even have a good excuse like you do :P Maybe that it hasn't stopped raining in a week or something idek. If I didn't have to go to my last class of the semester (woot) in a few minutes I'd make you chat with me about Winters and Nick doing it. I mean...no, that's what I meant.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

IT'S JUST A BUMMED OUT TIME OF YEAR. :( Hee, well, you've been so busy, too. End of semesters are exhausting.

If I didn't have to go to my last class of the semester (woot) in a few minutes I'd make you chat with me about Winters and Nick doing it

AND EVERYONE CALLS HER A TEASE. Haha, not that Nick/Winters is all I can think about pretty much full time. YOU BETTER HIT ME UP WHEN YOU GET HOME, LADY.

[miss-bennie.livejournal.com]

Awww. :( Want me to make you a happy mix? Maybe you should watch some Deal or No Deal? Pam and Ryan doing it? Want to go see a plaaaaaay?

(And I'm sorry about Life! I know how sad that must make you.)

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Aww, I am always up for a happy mix! Live to Party is helping, at least, when I switch over to that train.

THEY SHOULD NOT CANCEL SHOWS. :( <3 <3 <3

[wegeton.livejournal.com]

i hope you feel better soon :(
and i am snagging the two non-JB songs, thankyou!

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! And enjoy the songs!

[eglow23.livejournal.com]

Aw, Life, *shoot*. I'm having such bad luck with my shows this year: Sarah Connor, Kings, Pushing Daisies...if they cancel Chuck I'm giving up on all shows that even *hint* at being in trouble. I just can't take the heartbreak anymore :(

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Ugh, I know, right? WHY DO YOU DO IT TO ME, TELEVISION?

[swmbo.livejournal.com]

*clingclingcling*

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

*SQUISH*

[myr-soleil.livejournal.com]

Being bummed sucks, but at least I really enjoy the comments people write you to cheer you up. & I took the music (except for the Jonas one, since I already had to study it for a lecture) and they went right in my "cinematic songs" playlist, along with Devil's Playground and some HIMYM songs. (It's just so great when TV shows use great music, and Life was ace at it.) So thanks for that! I hope you feel better soon.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Heee, as long as there is fic, being bummed ain't so bad. I hope you enjoy the music! Life really does have awesome songs on it.

[smithereen.livejournal.com]

Moving is hard and awful. Even when it's a good move, like I think this will be, it still SUCKS. Sympathies. :(

Also. I have randomly decided that Nick Jonas should do it with this guy:



His name is Chris Keller, and he refers to himself in the third person, and he's a hugely cocky asshole (but in the way where it's funny instead of gross?), and the only thing he loves more than himself is music, and he's the kind of person that HIJINKS happen to, and he has ZERO SHAME. He'd drag Nick from one humiliating, disasterous incident to the next until Nick was completely undone and destroyed and I just um- Think it would be good for him?

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Heee, oh man, so when I got this comment in gmail, it didn't have the video embedded, obvs, so I was like, "... Chris Keller of OZ? Hoo boy, don't you think that might be a little hardcore for Nick? I don't want Nick's arms and legs broken!" But haha, OTH, HOKAY, BETTER.

If anyone needs shenanigans, it's Nick Jonas, that is for sure!

[pennylane83.livejournal.com]

Aw man, I'm sorry you're feeling bummed <3 <3 <3 Seriously, maybe it wouldn't be so bad if it would just stop frickin raining??

And I guess if Life had to end, at least they were able to wrap it up a little? Maybe we should plan a re-watch of both seasons for this summer along with the Pam/Ryan bookclub y/y??

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Seriously, the rain is KILLING MY SOUL. Haha, I don't even know if bummed is exactly what I am, I'm just a mass of feelings in general, it's ridic.

ALSO, HEY, I LIKE YOUR ICON.

Yeah, it wasn't a bad place for the show to end. I guess. Except for the conspiracy which was 100% ridic, haha. But God, we should SO TOTALLY do a rewatch of both seasons! That would help my poor broken heart. That and Pam/Ryan bookclub -- EVERYTHING'S COMING UP MILHOUSE.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

Ugh, it's such a good shooooooow, NBC YOU SUCK. :(

Oh man, I'm so sorry you're having to move! That's terrible. Ugh, so stressful.

Heee, I am spending a LOT of time thinking about Nick Jonas falling in love with Mr. Winters, I'm not going to lie to you.

[park-hye-in.livejournal.com]

life got canceled? fuuuuuuuuuck.

[annakovsky.livejournal.com]

D: D: D:

[paintedmaypole.livejournal.com]

Dude! I still can't believe you guys are moving. I'm so sadface!

I recommend nothing but bad, hyper-produced pop music for packing and moves. Its mind and stress-numbing qualities have helped me through many a box of dishes.